day 5 - i woke up like this

-day 5-

I'm sick. Hooray! I have my sisters bachelorette party this weekend which is stressing me out more than I think i knew. ugh. I It will be a fun weekend as long as I am not hacking and snotting all over the damn place. I am anxious about it coz I've never thrown a proper bachelorette party let alone been to one. And its a whole weekend and its in San Diego, a place i know nothing about... BUT I've been planning it for months, all the details are set -I just need to change my thinking around it. its going to be fun because my sisters friends love her and, because of or regardless of what I planned, they will make it fun for her.

Today is my ex's birthday. Im hosting an 'i reject and destroy' burning ritual tonight with some powerful witches and manifesters and I can not wait. This past weekend gave me space and permission to find compassion for him and forgive him. I also learned that there will be some days/hours/minutes that I will fail at having compassion for him and right now is one of them. I think my body is still trying to expel all the toxins from my body that my spirit deemed 'of no use for my desired future' this weekend.

oops- got distracted by how fuckin cute Chicken is. Anyway - the thoughts of my not having purpose are creeping in so I need to make a list of tasks for the day. I hope y'all have a great Tuesday. Send me good vibes around 9pm <3

xbird