Day 4 - Forage

- day 4 -

I woke up this morning to Chicken and her new foster brother Jasper snoozing up a storm. I thinking a lot about the lessons I learned this weekend about infinite space and how adamant some people are about telling me there is not enough room for the amount of care I have for people, how much I give myself to others AND care for myself and giving to myself. There is room for both and both existing at the same fuels the other. I am a little stressed out because mt apartment is a mess. I typically deep clean my space before I take a trip so the unpacking process when I get home is easy and stress free - but I was in a bout of mania when I left and challenged myself not to feed the beast by cleaning away my mania. So, I returned to an unorganized apartment that I will spend the better half of the day cleaning. I am trying not to let my negative self talk convince me that I am not capable of the transformations coming my way fed by my experiences this weekend. My first order of business is putting into place my Foraging challenge on Instagram where I ask my friends to suggest an item I have to hunt for on Sundays. It will get me out of my comfort zone and focused on fulfilling a fun task while interacting with people and not disappearing into a depressive stupor.

I am so tired this morning. I expelled a lot of emotional and physical energy this weekend. I am recuperating today but two puppies under a year old are wreaking havoc on my chill time. Sitting and witnessing them play is pretty fucking joyful. Getting cuddled and covered in kisses by a dog who just yesterday wouldn’t let me touch him is a fucking WIN for me. He was abandoned by his owner and survived alone outside of an apartment building for nearly a month. Chicken is showing him the ropes. It reminds me that I have power in this world to bring joy to humans and animals by providing everyone/thing I come into contact with the same amount of compassion and safety that I provide these dogs.

Have a wonderful Monday y’all. I’m gonna make breakfast and maybe walk to get some coffee.

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