yesterday was a crazy day. I was up and working from 7am til around 2am. bachelorette stuff, client stuff, chicken stuff and class stuff. today is even more crazy as my friend Jess and i will be literally racing a train to get to SD before the women (who are on the train with my sister) so we can set up everything. im stressed but also excited. I have a ton of shit to do before i leave at 11. i am still positive, ive had some very deep sadness this week but i have a net to fall back on instead of my old habits. im tired and hungry but i have nothing to cook so i guess m cafe it is. i fucking love m cafe. i find myself right now trying to fill these 10 minutes with "interesting content" but i feel nothing - i feel tired. i feel anxious and i feel super excited to celebrate my sister. My intention this weekend is to make sure she has fun but not at the expense of my AA goals. I had to change all the plans for the Bach party last minute coz one of the women told my sister EVERYTHING i planned- so i changed everything. including or air b n b so now my 'room' is a "lounge chair" conveniently located in the kitchen. ha. ok im off to eat. omg i just remembered i have a secret stash of cinnamon toast crunch. ima eat that.