I am posting this late but I did write it this morning at 8am.
I would firstly like to introduce myself as Bird. I had an incredible transformative weekend surrounded by some of the most powerful people I've ever met. During a conscious name reassignment ceremony I finally gave myself permission to let go of Amanda for a while.
I am sad to be leaving this amazing cabin and I am sad to not wake up to Morgan's face cooking eggs, or Dakota's smile or Aurora's eyes or Tara's voice. All of these things will live in my heart from here on out and keep me on the path I desire each coming season.
I learned a lot about myself and have found an abundance of forgiveness for people in my life I thought i could never forgive. I will inexplicably fail at this, but knowing i am capable of a life void of the anger i've been carrying around is enough for now. Day one a mantra came to me which will soon join the menagerie of tattoos on my body. "I Desire This Journey". I love it because it is not innately positive or negative. It reminds me that the journey i am on is made up of a million and one decisions based on or indirect conflict to a desire. I will practice choosing to follow desire. Morgan taught me the Universe loves a vacuum - any empty space will be filled with what ever is around - If I surround myself with negative energy then negative energy will fill my spaces. I desire to make space for positive transformation.
I hope you all had a productive weekend. I hope you all found yourself amidst your little wins. If not, call me! lets tackle some wins together this week <3 Off to eat breakfast with my new sisters. Below is a photo taken by Dakota while i sat bare assed and braless on our balcony smoking. In my fucking power. Welcome to the season of raw unpredictable desire.